How She Died How I Lived I was one of five The five girls Kyle texted that day The girls it could have been Only Jamie beautiful saintly Jamie was kind enough to respond And it got her killed On the eve of Kyle s sent

  • Title: How She Died, How I Lived
  • Author: Mary Crockett
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  • I was one of five The five girls Kyle texted that day The girls it could have been Only Jamie beautiful, saintly Jamie was kind enough to respond And it got her killed.On the eve of Kyle s sentencing a year after Jamie s death, all the other chosen ones are coping in various ways But our tenacious narrator is full of anger, stuck somewhere between the horrifying p I was one of five The five girls Kyle texted that day The girls it could have been Only Jamie beautiful, saintly Jamie was kind enough to respond And it got her killed.On the eve of Kyle s sentencing a year after Jamie s death, all the other chosen ones are coping in various ways But our tenacious narrator is full of anger, stuck somewhere between the horrifying past and the unknown future as she tries to piece together why she gets to live, while Jamie is dead.Now she finds herself drawn to Charlie, Jamie s boyfriend knowing all the while that their relationship will always be haunted by what ifs and why nots Is hope possible in the face of such violence Is forgiveness How do you go on living when you know it could have been you instead Get A Copy Kindle Store StoresAudibleBarnes NobleWalmart eBooksGoogle PlayAbebooksBook DepositoryAlibrisBetter World BooksIndieBoundLibraries Or buy for Kindle Edition, 417 pages Published November 13th 2018 by Little, Brown Books for Young Readers More Details ASIN B07B8D7P4H Other Editions 5 All Editions Add a New Edition Combine Less Detail edit details Win a Copy of This Book How She Died, How I Lived by Mary Crockett Author Release date Nov 13, 2018 Enter for a chance to win one of 50 ebooks of HOW SHE DIED, HOW I LIVED Enter Giveaway Format

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    View details Friend Reviews To see what your friends thought of this book, please sign up Reader QA To ask other readers questions about How She Died, How I Lived, please sign up Recent Questions I m 328 pages in and I just realized I don t know the main characters name So did they mention it and I forgot Or did they not mention it at all Or does it come later like 3 days ago Add your answer See 1 question about How She Died, How I Lived Lists with This Book This book is not yet featured on Listopia Add this book to your favorite list Community Reviews Showing 1 30 Rating details Sort Default Filter Dec 27, 2018 Alana thebookishchick rated it really liked it review of another edition Shelves reviewed arcs, tough topics Never in my life have a reached out to an author after finishing a book until now That s how powerful I felt this story was and I am so incredibly grateful to have been given the opportunity to read this.Our narrator struggles throughout the entire story with why she got to live and Jamie had to die When the murder trial re opens one year after Jamie s death to determine if her murderer, Kyle, should receive the death penalty, the MC then starts to struggle with coming face to face with the ma Never in my life have a reached out to an author after finishing a book until now That s how powerful I felt this story was and I am so incredibly grateful to have been given the opportunity to read this.Our narrator struggles throughout the entire story with why she got to live and Jamie had to die When the murder trial re opens one year after Jamie s death to determine if her murderer, Kyle, should receive the death penalty, the MC then starts to struggle with coming face to face with the man capable of such a horrific crime and ultimately knowing that she will have some part in whether Kyle gets to live or die as she testifies against him However, at the same time she slowly starts becoming close with Jamie s boyfriend, Charlie, and they find begin to find comfort in one another as the dreaded trial inches closer and closer.One of the reasons I connected so much with this story so much is because I am familiar with the emotions of losing a loved one and feeling that no amount of justice will ever be fully served Will the death penalty serve justice A life for a life Or is prison enough Either one will never bring back your loved one, but is one better than the other It s something that is always up for the debate and I love that this book really makes you think long and hard about this, because in my opinion it is an extremely complicated answer.Charlie, was a bit of a complex character, and it s easy to see why he might not be liked by some readers He deals with grief by pushing others away which obviously is not healthy and not fair to our MC as their relationship progresses He was very hot and cold towards her It s not right to push away your loved ones, but for some of us that is how we cope and I was able to relate to him a lot because of it Towards the end of the story his grief comes out as very raw and very angry which was also extremely relatable to me This was definintely another reason why I loved this book so much, because I was able to see a lot of myself in both the narrator and Charlie.In case you haven t realized, I ve never once said the narrator s name and that s because you will not find it anywhere in this book Which is why I e mailed the author From the very first page to the very last page I wondered what this girl s name was, and why it was never once mentioned The response I received from the author blew me away and further solidified my love for this book and made it a thousand times powerful because of how this book also ties into rape culture in today s society.Favorite Quotes Because I m pretty sure the world doesn t much care what might have happened It s not interested in how small I feel To the world, I m just another drunk girl at a party Most of the time, it s like I mlike I m not living at all I m just some girl who, for whatever reason, isn t dead yet A girl he didn t kill I know that capital sentence is just his lawyer s way of saying death And though Kyle deserves to die for what he did, the thought that I could somehow be helpful in bringing about that end doesn t give me even an ounce of relief This world This preposterously beautiful world You d think we could live in it without killing each other This world This, world, so much than we deserve. All in all, this book was one of the most powerful books I read in 2018 and I will be shoving this book at every single person I possibly can I love well written books that deal with heavy topics and this will certainly go down as one of my favorites.Blog Twitter Instagram flag 22 likesLike see review Nov 14, 2018 Kayla Brunson rated it it was ok review of another edition Shelves disappointment, young adult, arc I want to be alive And to be okay with being alive I went into this book expecting to come out an emotional wreck Sadly, that wasn t my outcome In short, this book lacked the dept that I was expecting and was really formed as just another contemporary Now, I m not saying that it s a bad book This covers topics from survivor s guilt, moving on, and being true to yourself I feel like we could have really dived deeply into those emotions, but the writing wasn t there I don t even kno I want to be alive And to be okay with being alive I went into this book expecting to come out an emotional wreck Sadly, that wasn t my outcome In short, this book lacked the dept that I was expecting and was really formed as just another contemporary Now, I m not saying that it s a bad book This covers topics from survivor s guilt, moving on, and being true to yourself I feel like we could have really dived deeply into those emotions, but the writing wasn t there I don t even know if justice is a thing If it s possible For the most part, I really enjoyed the narration that we received from Jaime she asked the questions that are hard to ask I liked being on the journey with her while she found a way to try and move on and learn to forgive for something tragic.What really drove my rating down was the romance I didn t see the need for it nor did I like it Being with someone who s girlfriend died a year ago when it could have been you just doesn t seem like it should happen Charlie didn t really need to be in a relationship He was full of too much grief and pain He was still mourning the loss of Jaime How can you be in a relationship with someone whose mourning the person they loved and expect them to love you too Overall, while it wasn t terrible, I just feel that the romance and excess background plot took away from this story being better for me ARC provided for an honest review Quotes are subject to change upon publication Blog Instagram Twitter flag 9 likesLike see review View all 4 comments Jan 01, 2019 TL rated it it was amazing review of another edition Wow, just wow this one will stay with me flag 8 likesLike see review Nov 15, 2018 PinkAmy loves books, cats and naps rated it did not like it This review has been hidden because it contains spoilers To view it, click here 1.5 STARSWhen people say, Don t judge a book by its cover, believe them The cover and blurb of HOW SHE DIED, HOW I LIVED made me think I d read an emotionally charged thriller Instead the book left me not caring.Mary Crockett s writing is the strongest part of the book, the plot and characters are the weakest HOW SHE DIED, HOW I LIVED is filled with dysfunctional relationships, often due to lack of communication, yet Crockett rarely addressed the problems She did a good job of representing 1.5 STARSWhen people say, Don t judge a book by its cover, believe them The cover and blurb of HOW SHE DIED, HOW I LIVED made me think I d read an emotionally charged thriller Instead the book left me not caring.Mary Crockett s writing is the strongest part of the book, the plot and characters are the weakest HOW SHE DIED, HOW I LIVED is filled with dysfunctional relationships, often due to lack of communication, yet Crockett rarely addressed the problems She did a good job of representing partying, but there were never any consequences other than hangovers The PTSD she included seemed to be plot, not character motivated and then disappeared midway through the story I disliked the ending most of all The unnamed narrator decides to forgive the murderer after little introspection or therapy to process her feelings She becomes preachy not in a religious sense and intolerant that the victim s ex, her now boyfriend, still wants him dead And what s up with not giving the narrator a name.I don t recommend HOW SHE DIED, HOW I LIVED flag 7 likesLike see review Nov 14, 2018 Shelby rated it it was amazing review of another edition I received an ARC of this novel in exchange for an honest review.I really, really enjoyed How She Died, How I Lived, much than I was anticipating I was expecting it to be a bit of a thriller, definitely on the darker side, but I was pleasantly surprised by the variety of emotion in this book We follow our main character who remains mysteriously unnamed as she deals with survivor s guilt She and four other girls were texted by a boy named Kyle Only one replied and she was raped and m I received an ARC of this novel in exchange for an honest review.I really, really enjoyed How She Died, How I Lived, much than I was anticipating I was expecting it to be a bit of a thriller, definitely on the darker side, but I was pleasantly surprised by the variety of emotion in this book We follow our main character who remains mysteriously unnamed as she deals with survivor s guilt She and four other girls were texted by a boy named Kyle Only one replied and she was raped and murdered for doing so Our main character now struggles as, a year later, Kyle s trial is coming up and she must testify.This first thing I want to mention is the writing style The way the story is told is absolutely mesmerizing I genuinely cannot express how beautifully written this book is, so cue me being redundant and repetitive I also loved our characters Lindsey, Charlie, and our main character were all fleshed out so well I felt like they were real people, living a real life and struggling through real things I love a character driven story, and that s exactly what this was The narrator was trying to find out how she could be okay with surviving when the better person was killed and it could have just as easily been her This internal struggle that occasionally was voiced externally was such a raw and emotional one to see The author did a wonderful job of explaining what the character was going through.Overall, I was so happy with How She Died, How I Lived I was hesitant going into it because I was afraid it was going to be really out of my comfort zone, but I m so glad I picked it up I would absolutely recommend this to anyone flag 5 likesLike see review Nov 16, 2018 Bee marked it as dnf review of another edition Shelves books i own ebook, contemporary, meh, young adult DNF at 48%It s interesting but also tediously boring flag 5 likesLike see review Dec 30, 2018 Christy rated it liked it review of another edition A solid 3 star read This is the story of dealing with survivor s guilt and reconciling anger and forgiveness I like that it explores both options and that the narrator remains unnamed this story could be any of ours flag 2 likesLike see review Dec 01, 2018 Sarah Literary Meanderings rated it really liked it review of another edition Shelves genre young adult, cover love, needs review, bittersweet ending, coping acceptance, creepster alert, death dying, genre contemp romance, genre suspense, heavy issues Hated the love interest in this one Ugh Review to come flag 2 likesLike see review Oct 16, 2018 Crystal Zavala rated it liked it review of another edition Shelves giveaways First, let me say that I should have checked to see who the target audience was before I started this book The book cover says 14 , so I am going to take that to mean that it is considered to be YA After reading the book, I would definitely agree that it is written for a high schooler The topics are probably a little too heavy for a middle reader Because I didn t realize that the book was written for 14 18 year olds, I initially struggled with the simplicity of the writing However, if I had First, let me say that I should have checked to see who the target audience was before I started this book The book cover says 14 , so I am going to take that to mean that it is considered to be YA After reading the book, I would definitely agree that it is written for a high schooler The topics are probably a little too heavy for a middle reader Because I didn t realize that the book was written for 14 18 year olds, I initially struggled with the simplicity of the writing However, if I had read this book as a high school girl, I would have loved it.Mary Crockett is also a poet as well as a novelist I found that to be very clear as she had the characters reciting poetry, performing Shakespeare, and quoting song lyrics Poetry is not my cup of tea, but I know it resonates with many teenagers.I found the story itself to be well written The characters were all relatable as high school kids There was one character that I felt didn t add to the story and was left hanging at the end The parents did frustrate me because as a parent, because I would have all these children in therapy for going through the trauma that they had experienced.Overall, I do think that this book would be a good read for a teenager flag 2 likesLike see review Sep 12, 2018 Paige Green rated it liked it review of another edition Disclaimer I received this book from KidLitExchange Thanks All opinions are my own.Rating 3 5Publication Date November 13th, 2018Genre YA ContemporaryRecommended Age 15 survivor s guilt, tragedy, regret, grief, mature scenes, romance trigger warning for rape and murder Pages 416Author Website LinkSynopsis I was one of five The five girls Kyle texted that day The girls it could have been Only Jamie beautiful, saintly Jamie was kind enough to respond And it got her killed Disclaimer I received this book from KidLitExchange Thanks All opinions are my own.Rating 3 5Publication Date November 13th, 2018Genre YA ContemporaryRecommended Age 15 survivor s guilt, tragedy, regret, grief, mature scenes, romance trigger warning for rape and murder Pages 416Author Website LinkSynopsis I was one of five The five girls Kyle texted that day The girls it could have been Only Jamie beautiful, saintly Jamie was kind enough to respond And it got her killed On the eve of Kyle s sentencing a year after Jamie s death, all the other chosen ones are coping in various ways But our tenacious narrator is full of anger, stuck somewhere between the horrifying past and the unknown future as she tries to piece together why she gets to live, while Jamie is dead.Now she finds herself drawn to Charlie, Jamie s boyfriend knowing all the while that their relationship will always be haunted by what ifs and why nots Is hope possible in the face of such violence Is forgiveness How do you go on living when you know it could have been you instead I felt this story was okay The characters were interesting and the plot was developed The premise behind this book is really intriguing as well and I think it s worth a read if you re interested.However, I feel that the book was really really confusing I got lost in the world constantly and I feel that the writing style didn t help my confusion The book really frustrated me and at the end I just skimmed over a lot of this book.Verdict It s worth the read if you can get through the text flag 2 likesLike see review View 2 comments Nov 12, 2018 Stephanie Ward rated it liked it review of another edition Shelves finished copy, for review, owned, will trade How She Died, How I Lived is a very relevant and heartbreaking young adult contemporary novel that deals with several important topics and real life scenarios I know that there s supposed to be a silver lining in this book, a sense of hope that filters through But for me, this book was just incredibly sad and thought provoking The topics that it covers survivor s guilt, death, hate, love, forgiveness, moving on, being true to yourself to name just a few are really serious and incredibly How She Died, How I Lived is a very relevant and heartbreaking young adult contemporary novel that deals with several important topics and real life scenarios I know that there s supposed to be a silver lining in this book, a sense of hope that filters through But for me, this book was just incredibly sad and thought provoking The topics that it covers survivor s guilt, death, hate, love, forgiveness, moving on, being true to yourself to name just a few are really serious and incredibly relevant to anyone in today s society I empathized so much with the main character, it made me hurt inside to hear all the details inside the story She was very realistic and easy to identify with right from the beginning The story is told from the first person point of view, from the main character s perspective I love this writing style and I think it s the perfect fit for this novel It wouldn t have had the same impact if it had been written in another way But the author hits a home run right into the reader s heart by using the narrator s first person POV The other characters were pretty flat, which was fine with me because this seemed like a single person character study anyway Even though I enjoyed the story and found it incredibly moving, there was a part of me that just couldn t get completely into the novel It might be because I don t normally read YA contemporary, so I felt way out of my comfort zone It doesn t reflect on the story, the writing, or the author in any way these are solely my personal opinions I do definitely recommend it to fans of the genre as well as readers who are interested in very relevant topics in today s society and how people deal with tragedy.Disclosure I received a copy of the book in exchange for an honest review flag 1 likeLike see review Dec 26, 2018 Nick rated it it was amazing review of another edition Mary Crockett s novel How She Died, How I Lived resonated deep in my bones in a number of ways At first glance, the book tackles an unfortunately real scenario that we are forced to encounter and endure the violence that women are subjected to, often merely for being women, is grossly and painstakingly true The contents of this novel did so much than rely on the controversially relevant subject matter to propel itself forward this comes from an artfully mastered control of technicality Mary Crockett s novel How She Died, How I Lived resonated deep in my bones in a number of ways At first glance, the book tackles an unfortunately real scenario that we are forced to encounter and endure the violence that women are subjected to, often merely for being women, is grossly and painstakingly true The contents of this novel did so much than rely on the controversially relevant subject matter to propel itself forward this comes from an artfully mastered control of technicality and craft Crockett delicately balances the framework of her novel with equal parts literary craft, well researched detail, and an engaging characters, dialogue, and overall tone throughout its entirety I found myself flipping through pages faster and faster, often holding my breath as I waited to see where I would end up next I bought in to this story whole heartedly I fell into the world Mary Crockett carved into the southwest Virginian landscape headfirst and without reservation.What struck me about this novel were the hills and valleys I found myself enduring throughout the read There were moments of hope and devastation, optimism and disbelief, which kept me wanting to read further Each character sustained him or herself on the page I tend to find myself dipping into a realm of predictability with a bulk of YA fiction, and even a heavy reliance on over dramatics and hyperbole to capture the attention and interest of the young adult audience I was surprisingly gifted a text that spoke to a younger generation yet did not give into these cliched pitfalls as a means of creating shortcuts in plot or page turning gimmicks Instead, the plot held its own, carried me through the story line, and was even kind enough to leave me with a sliver of hope for what happens after the final pages I am glad to have picked up this copy of Mary Crockett s book, and I eagerly look forward to her next flag 1 likeLike see review Sep 15, 2018 Kate rated it it was amazing review of another edition Shelves read in 2018 I received a free eArc from Edelweiss Although the hook is what caught me 5 local girls are sent a text that only one of them answers, and when she meets with the boy they all know, she is brutally beaten, raped, and murdered I stayed for the MC s grief and sense of being outside her old life A year later and our main character, un named, is dealing with survivor s guilt, her world once rocked by the killer s upcoming sentencing She s also starting to fall for the dead girl s boyfr I received a free eArc from Edelweiss Although the hook is what caught me 5 local girls are sent a text that only one of them answers, and when she meets with the boy they all know, she is brutally beaten, raped, and murdered I stayed for the MC s grief and sense of being outside her old life A year later and our main character, un named, is dealing with survivor s guilt, her world once rocked by the killer s upcoming sentencing She s also starting to fall for the dead girl s boyfriend, both of them haunted by memories, anger and confusion This is one of those books that s so hard to put in a category, not a thriller or a mystery, although our MC s world is now filled with the knowledge that a boy she hardly knew had premeditated her murder, but any girl would have done as long as she answered his text It s not a romance, although it contains love stories, broken hearts and unrequited love It s not a just a book about grief, although it is a major issue all the characters are dealing with It s all those things, all those emotions This is definitely going on my top ten of 2018 list I also read the author s notes at the end, and how she came by the idea for this story, which made me love the story even flag 1 likeLike see review May 15, 2018 Hallie added it review of another edition Shelves read in 2018, young adult, kidlitexchange, arc Thanks to kidlitexchange network for the free review copy of this book all opinions are my ownThe unnamed narrator is one of five girls that Kyle texted the day he murdered Jamie Kyle senselessly and brutally murdered one of his classmates at random and now his sentencing is coming up The narrator can t forget how easily she could have been the one who was killed that day This book is about many things grief, regret, justice, and new beginnings It tackles survivor s guilt and how overcome Thanks to kidlitexchange network for the free review copy of this book all opinions are my ownThe unnamed narrator is one of five girls that Kyle texted the day he murdered Jamie Kyle senselessly and brutally murdered one of his classmates at random and now his sentencing is coming up The narrator can t forget how easily she could have been the one who was killed that day This book is about many things grief, regret, justice, and new beginnings It tackles survivor s guilt and how overcome you can feel when you re close to a tragedy It also tackles large issues like who serves justice and how far you should go to see punishment served The 400 page book is written in short chapters that make the story go by faster It includes sweet moments of a budding romance and scenes of friendship between the girls that Kyle targeted It has a short lived mystery with some anonymous notes but overall it s not a suspenseful novel It s about how to move on after a tragedy strikes.Recommended for readers of contemporary YA and those who liked This Is Where It Ends flag 1 likeLike see review Dec 17, 2018 Sue BeautyBookCorner rated it it was ok review of another edition 1.5 Stars I felt like the author had some great intentions with the message she wanted to convey, but personally, I felt the execution failed miserably There were small snippets where we get hit in the face with how prevalent rape culture and sexually predatory behavior is in our society and how this culture leads to violence against women I applaud the author for feeling so convicted by seeing news of violence against young women to write this story However, the book fell very short for m 1.5 Stars I felt like the author had some great intentions with the message she wanted to convey, but personally, I felt the execution failed miserably There were small snippets where we get hit in the face with how prevalent rape culture and sexually predatory behavior is in our society and how this culture leads to violence against women I applaud the author for feeling so convicted by seeing news of violence against young women to write this story However, the book fell very short for me I felt like there were certain sections that were needlessly graphic Needless, because I felt like it was added only for shock value and didn t create depth or expand the story They felt jarring and random The premise sounded interesting I thought this would be really emotional as we follow these girls and how they deal with survivor s guilt and what ifs that plague them after the murder of a fellow classmate as these were all girls who were targeted to be murdered as well It was pure chance that they survived While there are moments in the book where this is explored, it was completely overshadowed by other plotlines There was an odd suspense mystery element thrown in For sake of not spilling any spoilers, I can t give details I will say that it was very obvious who was behind this mystery The survivors are getting really scared, but the main character makes really dumb decisions and acted very unrealistically She refuses to go to the police because they feel like they will be seen as silly girls and not taken seriously I get why the author may have put this in, but c mon These girls were targeted by a murderer The murder s trial is coming up They live in a small town Why would authorities write off their worries The kicker was the romance between the main character and Charlie, the victim s boyfriend It seemed like she had always had a soft spot for Charlie And seeing Charlie grieving draws her to him because they have this shared commonality through this tragedy I understood this What I didn t understand was how this relationship was healthy There were a couple of moments where she says she doesn t understand how he could move on from Jamie Like someone is not capable or allowed to love again But then she also says she doesn t expect him or want him to get over Jamie when Charlie pulls away from her Like this main character was soo needy and blind when it came to Charlie She had this suffer and be quiet attitude when it came to Charlie He was so disrespectful to her Yes, he is grieving, but he would shut her out for days and then appears saying he does really like her And she just takes him back over and over again No00, girl Overall, this just wasn t for me Not the worst book I ve read, but not one I would recommend Thank you to The NOVL for sending this book to me for review I appreciate it so much flag 1 likeLike see review Nov 10, 2018 Amber rated it really liked it review of another edition How She Died, How I Lived isn t my normal read, but I couldn t let go of the idea of a girl struggling with survivor s guilt after a classmate was murdered Our main character was a nameless female high school student who received a text from neighborhood weirdo Kyle one random summer day She never responded to him, but she had planned to Instead, sweet Jamie answered his call for company and was sexually assaulted and brutally murdered How She Died, How I Lived reminded me a bit of The Femal How She Died, How I Lived isn t my normal read, but I couldn t let go of the idea of a girl struggling with survivor s guilt after a classmate was murdered Our main character was a nameless female high school student who received a text from neighborhood weirdo Kyle one random summer day She never responded to him, but she had planned to Instead, sweet Jamie answered his call for company and was sexually assaulted and brutally murdered How She Died, How I Lived reminded me a bit of The Female of the Species because of its conversations of violence done to women and the assumption men have over women s bodies Overall, How She Died, How I Lived was a thoughtful story that explored trauma, love after loss, friendship, and forgiveness I recommend this to readers who enjoy quieter books that explore growth flag 1 likeLike see review Apr 23, 2018 Bookworm LLC rated it liked it review of another edition Shelves cindy bookshelf How She Died, How I Lived is a story about a girl who was murdered and the friends who were left to wonder why her I liked the story line but felt there were times the author went Squirrel At times it took reading a paragraph before you understood who was telling the story I just don t know what else to say about it The writing style wasn t to my liking flag 1 likeLike see review Nov 17, 2018 Emmi Rose emmirosereads rated it it was ok review of another edition Shelves two stars Thank you once again to the NOVL for sending me an early copy to read and review I m confident that this is not a case of a bad book at all How She Died, How I lived was well written, with solid characters and a great premise I think it simply just wasn t a book for me and wasn t what I was expecting It didn t quite provoke the emotions I thought it would either For being a book about survivors guilt and grief I felt like it didn t go into much depth about it It seemed pretty surface leve Thank you once again to the NOVL for sending me an early copy to read and review I m confident that this is not a case of a bad book at all How She Died, How I lived was well written, with solid characters and a great premise I think it simply just wasn t a book for me and wasn t what I was expecting It didn t quite provoke the emotions I thought it would either For being a book about survivors guilt and grief I felt like it didn t go into much depth about it It seemed pretty surface level to me and felt way like a typical slice of life, highschool contemporary Which of course there is nothing wrong with that, but it s just not something I find myself being able to enjoy often At the same time, I can completely understand why Mary Crockett wrote it that way and it might be the point I think it seems very true to life for circumstances like our narrators is going through, and a year after the event happened Especially since our narrator wasn t that extremely close to Jamie Life moves on and around you, and often you ll have to move with it Though while she s going through life she has these thoughts and things she s struggling with and just trying to find value in her own life So I m really not sure at all how I feel I can t say I enjoyed it and I wished it was delved into , but at the same time I can understand and see why it wouldn t be necessarily so How She Died, How I lived was a very beautifully written book, like I said before Straightforward where it needs to be, but lyrical and thought provoking when it really makes an impact While I wish things got delved into deeper there were still a few really impactful paragraphs throughout this book that really hit me Especially as a girl who could just as easily be going through this and dealing with the fears that our narrator does And some lines that were just simply beautiful I guess I should just be happy he didn t get me alone in some room.And I am.But I m also sick of being thankful that some horrible thing miraculously didn t happen to me Our grief is our signature, with everyone dotting the i in their own special way What if no one loved her Would that make it somehow okay Does she only matter if she s someone else s sister or wife What about her, just herself Isn t that enough This was also written with very short chapters which made this book very easy to fly through, which is something I always love and appreciate We also have a lot of really good characters and sweet relationships It was really great to see each one and how they currently are and how they really reacted to Jamie s death I really loved Lindsey s and our narrator s friendship and I think they really balance each other out You can really see that despite their disagreements they re always there for each other I also really liked the development that our main character goes through You really see her thought process from a year ago when the event happened, to a year later when the book starts and then at the end when her perspective really changes.I think the biggest thing that bothered me about this book, and what really made me give it a lower rating, was the romance I rarely ever hate romance in books As a hopeless romantic myself it s something I actually love and look for but in this case I felt like it completely took away from the story It felt completely unnecessary, insta lovey and rushed I probably would have given this book a three star, maybe even four if it wasn t for that fact In my opinion I think there would have been so much value if Charlie and the narrator simply bonded as friends and stayed that way though out the book Also, something else that kind of bothers me thinking about it now is the fact that the narrator remains unnamed throughout the entire book I can t figure out any apparent reason why this would be so Obviously if there was an explained point to it all, it would make sense and not bother me at all, but there s nothing that I can tell It just makes me curious if there s a reason behind it Again, not necessarily a bad book at all just not my cup of tea If you go in aware of what this book is really about, I think you ll enjoy it If you generally enjoy contemporaries, I think it ll be something you love But if you re expecting a thriller or a really intense book I don t think you ll quite get it here flag Like see review Dec 05, 2018 Daphne rated it liked it review of another edition Shelves contemporaries I received an ARC from TheNovl for an honest review How She Died, How I Lived is told in first person, and the MC is not named during the whole book, so I m just going to be referring to her as MC She s one of five girls who was texted over a year ago by a boy named Kyle, but she didn t answer back The girl who did answer back, Jamie, ended up getting raped and murdered by Kyle The way the book starts made me cringe the murder took place 1 year 2 months prior, and there s some description o I received an ARC from TheNovl for an honest review How She Died, How I Lived is told in first person, and the MC is not named during the whole book, so I m just going to be referring to her as MC She s one of five girls who was texted over a year ago by a boy named Kyle, but she didn t answer back The girl who did answer back, Jamie, ended up getting raped and murdered by Kyle The way the book starts made me cringe the murder took place 1 year 2 months prior, and there s some description of what happened to Jaime It s not explicitly detailed out, but it s stated what happens to her and it s such a sad and senseless death That s a huge theme of this book the senselessness of murders like Jamie s that happens in the real world and how bad, violent things can happen to people particularly girls out of the blue The chapters are short and the story is easy to read in its style We follow the MC on an internal journey of intense sadness, pain, anger, grief, and survivor s guilt She has a HUGE case of survivor s guilt and some PTSD paranoia from being a girl who was almost murdered she was so close to answering that text She goes through a lot of introspection and contemplation of the world and people, and the struggle not to live in fear and hate It s definitely a hard journey, and I think the author did a good job conveying those thoughts and feelings There s also interactions between the other girls contacted by Kyle, and mentions of their own ways of coping and dealing with the aftermath of that tragedy I liked Lindsey one of the other girls contacted and the MC s friendship with her they have their ups and downs, and there s a feeling of realness from the MC s imperfections The victim s family is briefly mentioned, and Jamie s boyfriend, Charlie Hunt is a major character in the story I really liked Jared, and felt sorry for him and his unrequited feelings However, what was up with Todd Firebaugh It s never really explained what he was doing Same thing with Mark Lee, Charlie s best friend Those two characters felt unresolved There was romance in this book the MC and Charlie start to have a relationship, and it made me sad because of all the emotional baggage each carries Both of them are going through their own struggles, but they try to help one another However, I feel like Charlie wasn t fit, or ready to be in a relationship Jamie was obviously his childhood friend and love of his life The loss of a person like that I can only imagine to be devastating, and he deals with guilt and hate from not being there for her He shuts out the world often and I ached for him and his loss Certain details of this story reminded me a little of Our Chemical Hearts I wouldn t say that what Charlie and the MC had was a healthy relationship because both of them, especially Charlie, were not in a good place, but on the other hand, the MC helps him get better in ways, and aids him in becoming present in the world The relationship just seemed a little bit messed up to me but yeah, the situation they re in is already messed up Also, the way they got together, and the depth of feelings by the end surprised me it seems to jump levels and I didn t like that it felt like it was told, not shown Overall, this was a contemplative novel that covers survivor s guilt, learning to live again, and forgiveness in the face of violence and tragedy flag Like see review Jan 14, 2019 Joni Thomas rated it really liked it review of another edition This review is also posted on and on my blog Joni Readshttp jonilee73.wixsite jonireadKicking off the new blog AND the New Year with an absolutely incredible YA book by Mary Crockett titled How She Died, How I Lived Now this is going to sound a bit strange but I m a sucker for books on really heavy topics Topics like self harm, school shooting, kidnapping, etc Basically if the book could be made into an episode of Law and Order SVU, Criminal Minds, or CSI then I am going to ad This review is also posted on and on my blog Joni Readshttp jonilee73.wixsite jonireadKicking off the new blog AND the New Year with an absolutely incredible YA book by Mary Crockett titled How She Died, How I Lived Now this is going to sound a bit strange but I m a sucker for books on really heavy topics Topics like self harm, school shooting, kidnapping, etc Basically if the book could be made into an episode of Law and Order SVU, Criminal Minds, or CSI then I am going to add it to my TBR How She Died, How I Lived deals with one such heavy topic grief and survivor s guilt The unnamed narrator and main character was one of five girls a classmate texted to attempt to lure them to meet him Out of the five only one texted back a sweet girl named Jaime The classmate, Kyle, killed her The book follows the narrator as she copes with being one of the five girls Kyle chose to text that day She is trying to cope with knowing that it easily could have been her that drove out to meet Kyle It could easily have been her funeral everyone attended, her murder Kyle would be on trial for The way this book is written is really unique Almost like a journal but without traditional entries Some chapters are simply one sentence Others are the usual length I loved this style of writing, it really kept me interested I felt as though I was thinking the narrator s thoughts, feeling her emotions along side her The narrator is in her senior year of high school and it s interesting and also important to see her struggle with her day to day life She has to continue living, even with the knowledge of how things could have played out After all, she didn t text back She still is alive so shouldn t she make the most of it Following the story as she deals with the guilt of living her life when Jaime can t is a really important part of the book and it s not something many books deal with It s done beautifully here.There were a few things that I didn t like Towards the end there were a few side storylines that I felt could have been left out I understand why they were put in there, especially one dealing with Lindsey the narrator s best friend and another one of the five girls Kyle texted Not to give out any spoilers but there is a small side storyline with her towards the end that deals with a pretty serious topic And while I understand what the point of it being there was I think it could have been done a lot better It seemed to be thrown in as an after thought to address some of the behavior s exhibited by the character throughout the book and I feel like, because of the heaviness of the topic, if it wasn t going to handled thoroughly then it shouldn t have been added in at all Those very minor issues aside I really did enjoy this book I loved the story, the writing style, pretty much everything I would definitely recommend it I can t wait to see what else the author comes out with flag Like see review Dec 28, 2018 Catherine rated it did not like it review of another edition This review has been hidden because it contains spoilers To view it, click here In the glare of morning, he looks like a strung out raccoon That s about all this book really offers A small brief giggle The rest isash It wasn t what I needed or expected it to be I wish we would have got an explanation about the murder maybe even a twist about what exactly happened that day but all this is a sick love letter from a girl who could have died to the one that did about how guilty she feels for living and oh btw I m gonna casually start something with your boyfriend In the glare of morning, he looks like a strung out raccoon That s about all this book really offers A small brief giggle The rest isash It wasn t what I needed or expected it to be I wish we would have got an explanation about the murder maybe even a twist about what exactly happened that day but all this is a sick love letter from a girl who could have died to the one that did about how guilty she feels for living and oh btw I m gonna casually start something with your boyfriend It s not cute I think the most annoying part is we don t even know her name She makes someone else s death basically all about her and how she her whole town feel about the girl being killed But we don t get a name It s a disconnect honestly It makes her even less likable than she already sounds between her self centered coulda been me and judging literally everyone else in the book Especially her friend Who is only her friend because she is also one of the five girls he texted To be fair said friend is kind of annoying Obsessing over some guy who doesn t give a shit about her and what was that whole miscarriage thing for I didn t need that The story didn t need that Space filler I guess More annoyance.None of these characters are very likable Besides Jared everyone else is soaked in such immense grief over a year later Like the boyfriend Charlie is so hung up her still but feels cool just messing with our narrator anyway Trash the entire book isn t even about the girl who died or the boy who killed her It s about the people who feel their feelings about it are important than the real person it happened to I would have liked to hear from Jamie before her death maybe even after to get her perspective on things Like the over all outcome of his trial If she forgives him and what not Because all we get is a vague description of a really really really nice girl Almost like the Jamie from a walk to remember but less So much less It s weird to me how no one else thought it was tacky for Charlie and this girl to be together too if they even are when they get together after he ignores her for like a week it s a casual let s hook up sometimes thing even so I find it gross Year later or not it s obvious to me at least he just wants a physical thing and really doesn t care how he behaves towards her at all He ignores her or yells at her for most of their time together How is that healthy Especially when he so openly says he still loves this girl who isn t around any to love At some point you have to move on and you really can t do that if you still hold on to a love that is gone A ghost can t love you back Over all this book came off like it was suppose to be a mystery even dropping hints like the info revealed from some characters that wasn t in the news and have a twist but that doesn t happen and I feel mislead at best flag Like see review Nov 14, 2018 Alex Briennai rated it really liked it review of another edition The main character is beating herself up because she feels that Kyle should have killed her, not her friend Jamie She almost went to meet Kyle, and it could have been her Now, a year later, Kyle is getting sentenced She has to go with her other four friends and testify against him, and she will see him for the first time since he killed Jamie She doesn t know how she is going to deal with it, or her attraction to Charlie, Jamie s ex boyfriend This book is about the main character and her fr The main character is beating herself up because she feels that Kyle should have killed her, not her friend Jamie She almost went to meet Kyle, and it could have been her Now, a year later, Kyle is getting sentenced She has to go with her other four friends and testify against him, and she will see him for the first time since he killed Jamie She doesn t know how she is going to deal with it, or her attraction to Charlie, Jamie s ex boyfriend This book is about the main character and her friends healing There are many side plots, including the trouble that her friends get into as they are grieving I will not give any names besides Charlie, for spoiler purposes, but the side plots make up the majority of the book This book is definitely important for YA readers Sometimes things happen and people die Sure, not everyone has one of their semi close friends murdered in high school But whether it be in high school or college or young adult life, almost everyone is going to see someone they know die unexpectedly Whether it is something as big as a murder or as normal as a car accident, it will happen People will have to deal with it I liked how the main character noticed her own stages of grief and learned how to cope in her own way, instead of just allowing herself to drown One thing that was a little strange was Charlie s emotional outbursts I thought that we would get some sort of clarification as to why he was so upset Like, we understand that your girlfriend died, but sometimes he was acting a little crazy I thought that he would come out and say that he and his girlfriend had a fight right before she died, and so he felt like he was the reason that she saw Kyle that day Or that his girlfriend had been cheating on him with Kyle Something to warrant him being so unstable during the time, unstable than I considered to be normal But no surprising details were given He was simply upset This was even a lesson for me about grief, that it sometimes isn t normal Then there was a bit of a love triangle, but luckily it sort of went away by the middle to end of the book I was able to overlook it and focus on the better parts of the story This book had so much to offer, and even though it felt very long to read, I thought that the read was worth it If the book had been paced faster it might have been quicker to read, but I don t think we would have gotten all the details that the slower pace allowed Overall, this was really an enlightening read It wasn t a fun or easy read, but it was realistic and important I would recommend this book to lovers of YA fiction I received an advance copy of this novel flag Like see review Nov 09, 2018 Lily latestreads rated it liked it review of another edition Shelves 2018 arcs Thank you to TheNovl for sending me an ARC of this book Please know that the opinions expressed are my own.2.5 stars I was one of five The five girls Kyle texted that day The girls it could have been Only Jamie beautiful, saintly Jamie was kind enough to respond And it got her killed At first glance, I thought that this book would be filled with the suspense of the narrator s story and her near miss with death Instead, How She Died, How I Lived, tells the story of her recovery and her Thank you to TheNovl for sending me an ARC of this book Please know that the opinions expressed are my own.2.5 stars I was one of five The five girls Kyle texted that day The girls it could have been Only Jamie beautiful, saintly Jamie was kind enough to respond And it got her killed At first glance, I thought that this book would be filled with the suspense of the narrator s story and her near miss with death Instead, How She Died, How I Lived, tells the story of her recovery and her somewhat bland life known as one of the girls who survived.And the story was okay but it, unfortunately, wasn t super memorable.For example, the characters fell into very cliche roles There was the boyfriend of the dead girl, the best friend who also survived, and a musician who wants to date the MC.In some cases, like this, the cliche characters don t bother me too much The story only really follows the story of a girl and her recovery path the characters don t have to be that distinct I was able to see the narrator s recovery because the other characters didn t stand out and I wasn t distracted by them Of course, I would have loved for the characters to be original and I wish I learned about Kyle, the murderer All I knew is that he was in the MC s math class and that they got high together I feel as if the lack of distinction and originality in the characters made it hard for me to get attached When there were somewhat sad or moments with lots of emotions, I didn t feel anything for the characters The character relationships were also shaky The narrator and her friend are constantly fighting and arguing over the most trivial things They would go for days without talking to each other because one didn t approve of the other s boyfriend It just seems juvenile and annoying at times The relationship the narrator had with Charlie, the dead girl s boyfriend also seemed way too rushed It had only been about a year since Jamie died and no matter how many times he insisted, Charlie was obviously not ready for another relationship Especially with one of the girls that survived It seems especially untimely considering that Kyle s trial is taking place at the same time.The plot of the book sounded like it would have been full of emotions and maybe some suspense Sadly, the story did not meet these expectations And while it was nice to see the narrator recover, not a lot of the recovery was shown There was one part in the book, in the week or so leading up to the trial, where it looked as if it was picking up I got so excited because it happened to the other survivors as well But it was just a false alarm, which was severely disappointing The majority of the story focused, instead of on the healing process, on romantic relationships and parties It seemed as if all the characters did was go to parties I understand that they are teenagers, but I don t want to read about them going to parties and then getting hung over over and over again.To add interest to this book, I felt as if the book could have used flashbacks Maybe it could have opened with flashbacks of Kyle and the narrator in math class and then slowly build to the scene where he texts her Or Crockett could have included perspectives from other characters, maybe Kyle or Charlie Like what was Kyle thinking during the trail or maybe why he killed Jamie The ending was also not done satisfactorily There was a lot of built up suspense, and then an anti climatic ending I think that there was a cop out and the conclusion was messy I should have seen the ending coming as there was only one way to finish this book in line with the MC s recovery In conclusion, How She Died, How I Lived was not the worst book I liked the book, but it lacked in any real, substantial story The characters weren t very strong, and all that they really did was attend parties There were moments where I thought that there would be some suspense, but it leads to nothing However, it was good to see the narrator s healing and acceptance process The ending wasn t that good, it was quite disappointing, to be honest Yes, there are some well written moments, but I did not enjoy the majority of the book I don t necessarily think I would recommend this book flag Like see review Nov 15, 2018 Emily Richmond Reader rated it liked it review of another edition Shelves 2018 releases, arcs, issues 3.5 First impression this book is a thriller After reading way contemporary For someone me who is already so hyper aware of what happens to girls at the hands of selfish, angry and desperate men I just don t want this book to make others paranoid We shouldn t live our lives in fear Live aware, live safely, live smart, but not paranoid or in constant fear.This is a story of survivor s guilt.Our main character has no name This was intentional, the author s way of saying This co 3.5 First impression this book is a thriller After reading way contemporary For someone me who is already so hyper aware of what happens to girls at the hands of selfish, angry and desperate men I just don t want this book to make others paranoid We shouldn t live our lives in fear Live aware, live safely, live smart, but not paranoid or in constant fear.This is a story of survivor s guilt.Our main character has no name This was intentional, the author s way of saying This could happen to anyone It could happen to you Our first person narrator was one of five girls texted one night by a classmate named Kyle, who later killed the only girl who responded, Jamie Strand The only thing the girls had in common was their cars Kyle s premeditated plan was to act out his twisted fantasy then steal the girl s car to get away He left so many broken in his wake.Later in the book, the surviving four girls receive gifts from an unknown sender telling each It s not your fault This gives the story suspense, but ultimately falls flat later.I want to point out the differences between this book and other YA works of fiction, like how this novel really didn t have a ton of rising action, building up to a huge climax and then a heartfelt resolution ok it had a nice ending I think the novel s purpose is deeper than just entertaining the reader It tells a straight forward, yet fictional, story of the realistic actions of a sick man and how loss effects everyone around the tragedy So I m having trouble deciding what to rate it.This book reminded me of Speak by Laurie Halse Anderson and Love You Hate You Miss You by Elizabeth Scott A book from Charlie s perspective would be really cool flag Like see review Jan 06, 2019 Sarah Franklin rated it liked it review of another edition how she died, how i lived is a young adult novel exploring survivor s guilt and teen romance, all at once I m uncertain how to feel about this book It absolutely faces some important issues head on rape culture, capital punishment, and continuing on after trauma, but seems to fall short in so many ways.Even though it clocks in at just under 400 pages, this book was an incredibly fast read The chapters are short, and the writing is lyrical in places.The unnamed narrator is reeling from the b how she died, how i lived is a young adult novel exploring survivor s guilt and teen romance, all at once I m uncertain how to feel about this book It absolutely faces some important issues head on rape culture, capital punishment, and continuing on after trauma, but seems to fall short in so many ways.Even though it clocks in at just under 400 pages, this book was an incredibly fast read The chapters are short, and the writing is lyrical in places.The unnamed narrator is reeling from the brutal murder of a classmate, who could have just as easily been her, had she responded to a harmless seeming text from a former classmate The fact that the narrator isn t named is powerful this high school student could be any young girl It could ve been me in high school It could have been you.The romance between the narrator and Charlie, former boyfriend of the late Jamie Strand, is not my biggest complaint about this book, though I see how many people could be put off by it To me, the romance seemed like two teenagers looking for some, any comfort, in someone who had experienced something similar It could come across as forced and too fast moving, but I ve come to expect that from a lot of similar novels My biggest issue is how so many of the characters seem underdeveloped, and the myriad of sub plots often feel skimmed over Parts of it were very predictable avoiding specifics to avoid spoilers , but that didn t lessen the value of the message In the end, I think this book is fine Not awful, not great, but fine flag Like see review Dec 01, 2018 Chaya Edelman rated it really liked it review of another edition I received an ARC of this book from the publisher in exchange for an honest review All opinion are my own How She Died, How I Lived was a riveting and emotional read It was a very raw and real examination of the main character s emotional journey following the brutal murder of a local girl in her community The book does an amazing job at moving the plot forward with interesting developments in the main character s life while never losing focus on the internal struggles she is dealing with I received an ARC of this book from the publisher in exchange for an honest review All opinion are my own How She Died, How I Lived was a riveting and emotional read It was a very raw and real examination of the main character s emotional journey following the brutal murder of a local girl in her community The book does an amazing job at moving the plot forward with interesting developments in the main character s life while never losing focus on the internal struggles she is dealing with It was only when I finished the book that I realized that I had no idea what the main character s name is or much about her external characteristics I loved the supporting characters in the book, and the romance between the main character and Charlie was sweet and heartwrenching Mary Crocket did a great job of writing this story with sensitivity and grace Knowing that she wrote it following a similar event in her own community made it all the meaningful and real I could not stop thinking about it for hours after turning the last page, and I imagine it will stay with me for a long time flag Like see review Dec 17, 2018 Wendopolis rated it it was ok review of another edition This book is lacking something vital a point The narrator is one of five girls contacts by Kyle, who goes on to murder the girl who responded This happens before the book begins, and the story then concerns itself with the nameless narrator and her struggle to be ok with living while Jamie died Charlie, Jamie s boyfriend, is having a hard time dealing with her death, but kissing whatshername did I miss it seems to help a little.This was pretty much a waste of time because I kept waiting fo This book is lacking something vital a point The narrator is one of five girls contacts by Kyle, who goes on to murder the girl who responded This happens before the book begins, and the story then concerns itself with the nameless narrator and her struggle to be ok with living while Jamie died Charlie, Jamie s boyfriend, is having a hard time dealing with her death, but kissing whatshername did I miss it seems to help a little.This was pretty much a waste of time because I kept waiting for something to happen, and I didn t care that Charlie was angry and sad, and that whatshername is feeling guilty There was a bit of an attempt to build suspense regarding Kyle s upcoming trial, but that failed I m really not sure what this book was about Perhaps it would have worked better had the reader been able to experience some actual emotion, like the terror when Jamie realized Kyle meant her harm The whole book felt kinda blah flag Like see review Dec 27, 2018 Kara Fuerholzer rated it it was ok review of another edition If this book had ended differently, I would have rated it higher I had major issues with the romance view spoiler The main character decides to forgive the person that could have murdered her but her boyfriend who was the murdered girls boyfriend before doesn t agree with her He says he doesn t want to try to give up his hate She tells him she s not sure she can be with him then but he tells her that he needs her and she s what has been helping him in the past few months So she decides If this book had ended differently, I would have rated it higher I had major issues with the romance view spoiler The main character decides to forgive the person that could have murdered her but her boyfriend who was the murdered girls boyfriend before doesn t agree with her He says he doesn t want to try to give up his hate She tells him she s not sure she can be with him then but he tells her that he needs her and she s what has been helping him in the past few months So she decides to stay with him It would have been so much better if she walked away hide spoiler Girls are not boys therapists It is not their job to fix them and solve their problems view spoiler I m here because of you, the boyfriend says to her He would still be in zombie mood if not for her This is how he convinces her to stay with him hide spoiler This was a very toxic relationship that was played off as romantic flag Like see review Jan 06, 2019 Jessie rated it it was amazing review of another edition I loved this book Crockett automatically opens up with the death, in detail, and the book takes off from there It was brilliant to not name the narrator because it somehow made is possible to easily put yourself in her position It had The Scarlet Ibis sort of feel Crockett was able to take me through the roller coaster of emotions one goes through after anyone is affected by a death And although the narrator wasn t close to Jamie, the fact that she was connected to her death makes what sh I loved this book Crockett automatically opens up with the death, in detail, and the book takes off from there It was brilliant to not name the narrator because it somehow made is possible to easily put yourself in her position It had The Scarlet Ibis sort of feel Crockett was able to take me through the roller coaster of emotions one goes through after anyone is affected by a death And although the narrator wasn t close to Jamie, the fact that she was connected to her death makes what she goes through real Plus, their are different characters going through the sameing in different ways The fear, sadness, hate, guilt It is all there As always, I also look to see if my students will enjoy it,and with the short chapters ending with you wanting , it makes the book easy to get through,and the storyline pulls you in So good flag Like see review Jan 02, 2019 Angela Evans rated it it was ok review of another edition Shelves 2019 reads, young adult, mental health, audiobooks, dnf 2.5 5 stars.Maybe it was the audiobook reader, maybe it was the fact that the book started out with such a powerful BANG of a beginning and then tapered off to a droning bore fest for the rest of it, but I ended up skipping through the chapters and still didn t catch too many interesting happenings The concept of analyzing survivor s guilt and the what ifs of life seemed fascinating, but life is too short to be bored to sleep through an audiobook, so this will be a DNF for me Towards the end 2.5 5 stars.Maybe it was the audiobook reader, maybe it was the fact that the book started out with such a powerful BANG of a beginning and then tapered off to a droning bore fest for the rest of it, but I ended up skipping through the chapters and still didn t catch too many interesting happenings The concept of analyzing survivor s guilt and the what ifs of life seemed fascinating, but life is too short to be bored to sleep through an audiobook, so this will be a DNF for me Towards the end it seemed like something was happening, but the comic relief and just over all awkwardness of the characters and dialogue made me not interested in the slightest flag Like see review previous 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 next new topicDiscuss This Book There are no discussion 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      Mary Crockett is an award winning poet and author of the novel HOW SHE DIED, HOW I LIVED A native of the Shenandoah Valley of Virginia, Mary grew up as the youngest of six children in a family of misfits She has worked as everything from a history museum director to a toilet seat hand model In her other life, she teaches creative writing at Roanoke College in Virginia If you tweet at her, chan Mary Crockett is an award winning poet and author of the novel HOW SHE DIED, HOW I LIVED A native of the Shenandoah Valley of Virginia, Mary grew up as the youngest of six children in a family of misfits She has worked as everything from a history museum director to a toilet seat hand model In her other life, she teaches creative writing at Roanoke College in Virginia If you tweet at her, chances are she will tweet back

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    1. Never in my life have a reached out to an author after finishing a book until now That s how powerful I felt this story was and I am so incredibly grateful to have been given the opportunity to read this.Our narrator struggles throughout the entire story with why she got to live and Jamie had to die When the murder trial re opens one year after Jamie s death to determine if her murderer, Kyle, should receive the death penalty, the MC then starts to struggle with coming face to face with the ma N [...]


    2. I want to be alive And to be okay with being alive I went into this book expecting to come out an emotional wreck Sadly, that wasn t my outcome In short, this book lacked the dept that I was expecting and was really formed as just another contemporary Now, I m not saying that it s a bad book This covers topics from survivor s guilt, moving on, and being true to yourself I feel like we could have really dived deeply into those emotions, but the writing wasn t there I don t even kno I want to be [...]



    3. This review has been hidden because it contains spoilers To view it, click here 1.5 STARSWhen people say, Don t judge a book by its cover, believe them The cover and blurb of HOW SHE DIED, HOW I LIVED made me think I d read an emotionally charged thriller Instead the book left me not caring.Mary Crockett s writing is the strongest part of the book, the plot and characters are the weakest HOW SHE DIED, HOW I LIVED is filled with dysfunctional relationships, often due to lack of communication, yet [...]


    4. I received an ARC of this novel in exchange for an honest review.I really, really enjoyed How She Died, How I Lived, much than I was anticipating I was expecting it to be a bit of a thriller, definitely on the darker side, but I was pleasantly surprised by the variety of emotion in this book We follow our main character who remains mysteriously unnamed as she deals with survivor s guilt She and four other girls were texted by a boy named Kyle Only one replied and she was raped and m I received [...]



    5. A solid 3 star read This is the story of dealing with survivor s guilt and reconciling anger and forgiveness I like that it explores both options and that the narrator remains unnamed this story could be any of ours.


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